"...I'm 15 for a moment, caught in between 10 and 20. And I'm just dreaming...counting the ways to where you are ..."
FIFTEEN
The prophetic significance of fifteen is intricate & detailed. At age (15) fifteen I strive to embody the portion that signifies 'half of the mature portion for divine service'. This is amazing. I have always (really, 'since I was 3' type of always) been told I was "so very mature for my age" and after hearing that statement (innocent and kind as it was intended) time after time (after time again) I began to put a pressure on myself no one ever required or requested I take on. I pressured myself to be more...mature. I began to play a part. As an actress I took that role and forced myself to fit into it. Naturally, I analyze...I am a quick thinker but I could process for an eternity or two. Genetically, I am tall...I have always appeared to be older than I am in actuality. Consistently, I aim at the wise decision. That truly is my own desire and quality. But at (15) fifteen, in the midst of my sophomore year, I am faced with many decisions...I want to be prepared...and I put a lot effort into being that [/those] very things. Prepared...mature...blah...blah...blah..blah. Do not get me wrong. It is part of who I am and am so thankful for that part of my make-up. BUT, it is not all of who I am. I am fifteen...I want to be wack. I can be wack. I can totally allow myself to be wack! Because even prophetically this is not the number (age) of full maturity. Thank you, Jesus for my wiggle room.
